I got to be wholesome; I could be loathsome

I fell in love with my dream, and now I can't let it go. I can't move on. It feels so close to me...like it's in my reach. I watch other people who do it, and they do it well, but I've got this fire inside me. i can feel it burning. I know that this is mine, and that I can get it.
WATCH OUT FOR MY SHIT 'COS IMA BE FUCKING INFAMOUS.

lol.

this is a reconcilliation with myself.
If you don't have respect for me, then I don't have time for you.
and time is precious.
you are extra.

time for me!

It's been awhile since I've updated this thing. Here goes!

I'll be 21 in less than one month, and it's daunting. Everything is daunting to me, what am I talking about.
This year as been crazy. It feels like no time has passed since I turned 20. I remember that birthday really vividly. I was drunk & high at Bar Charlotte with midgets stapling shit to their heads. wow.
I was a fiery red head, with 2 new tatts. Now I've got four, and I'm getting my half sleeve, plus, I'm a blonde again. I feel like the same girl, but at the same time, I don't. I feel like I've been broken down--almost to nothing--and I've rebuilt myself. I'm so diffferent: more responsible, more nurturing, less carefree and I officially think about things before I do them (that's a huge change). I like being footloose and fancy free, but it's got it's consequences (& anyone who knows me know what those consequences are lol).
I'm the Grasshopper King, and i'm fine with that.
I've given up a lot, and I've burned a lot of bridges. I've been homeless, along with an onslaught of other things. I'm not on meds anymore, which is a gift and a curse. Everyday is different, it's just a matter of dealing with it.
anyway! now I'm listening to Everytime I Die and it's time to shred.
metal fingers!

What's up, guys? Thanks for all the great posts with all the new music in the group...I really appreciate it, and I'm sure the other group members do, as well.
I would like to say, though, that I don't want spammers in this group. It's cool if you want to post some music on here for us to listen to, but contribute don't just POSTPOSTPOSTPOSTPOSTPOSTPOSTPOSTPOSTPOST.

Mk?
Thanks!
<3 Kit

Who knew that anything could hurt this badly?

Somehow I find myself sitting in front of the same computer that I sat in front of in North Carolina, still feeling the same forboding sense of unrest. What kind of life have I spun for myself...when a life is simply a myriad of webs, where does one begin to unravel the problems and mend the pieces?

It's a sinking kind of pain. Not the kind of glamourous pain that is toted so nicely along with a life left behind. It's the kind of pain that one experiences during a reoccuring nightmare, except the nightmare is during the day, and is anything but a manifestation of a tired mind.

I think that I've lost the will to fight this battle...to fight any battle, really. I'm so tired of hiding all this pain. I want to scream and show the real me to people--why can't I? I guess I'm scared of what I could do. All the damage that I'd cause is too much for me to think about.

wow, guys! thanks for posting such great content while i was...cough...away...from vox!
Breakfast in Bed posted some stuff which is awesome--everyone should check it out!
Also, it looks like Stoneshiver did, as well as In the Neglected Olive Tree... . Thanks!

So, yeah. Keep posting awesomeness and tell all your friends...wash your hands, and look both ways before you cross a street...
you know the deal!

&hearts;
Kit

What is the one saying that your parents said to you that you absolutely hate? 
Submitted by victoriassecret.

THAT I HAVE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM!!!!!!
oh! i hate that!!!